Kickin' It Keto Style

                                        Day 153. Is that even believable?       I can answer that in just two letters. No.  Even more unbelievable is that there are only 213 more days left until we start to "ring" in a new year. I mean like, what? How even?      How even? There is a question that I am unable to answer.  Beings that 1/2 of the 2024 year is already over: have I done anything I took the time to write on paper during the end of the 2023 glitter fest happening around me? I can answer that in two letters too. No.      Maybe it has something to do with the fact that all the seasons seem off this year? Can I blame it on that? Seriously, here it is June and the sky is looking like a dream today. The air is chilly, it is gloomy out. Trees are bending much like a lazy weekend would have them doing. A faint smell of burning ...

                                              I hope that someday when I am gone that someone, somewhere                    picks my soul up, reads these pages and thinks "I wood have loved her."       It seems kind of crazy to, in times like these "love" something but today, I find that I do. It is my day off. My mind races to Starbucks with their Salted Caramel Cold foam a top - Chai Tea. I have become addicted. Lately. It seems that I can taste the ice cold creamy-ness in most of my dreams.       Do I want to venture out to get one. I weigh the pros and the cons of the trip.      Pros: The building is within walking distance.             The taste of the tea.             It is 1/2 price drinks until 6pm tonight.  ...

                                          Hello Grandma, are you there?      Not to long ago, I came across an article that convinced me to "write a letter" to the person who "took my heart away" when they gained their wings.      As I read it - it told me that the grieving process is much harder for some then it is for others. I believe my "story" goes into the column of (the MOST hard) as it has been. Over twenty years have escaped now since you have left me. My life never being the same from that day on.       I have so many things to ask you and so much to tell you. I truly believe in Angels though and that makes me believe that you know what has been happening in my life.      It is a Saturday afternoon. The rain is gently falling outside. Another beautiful Spring day here in Washington. I have been spending a lot ...

                                                                                                                   Christmas 2023      Just inches away from another New Year with the "last" one being ready to put to rest with somewhat of an unclosed chapter. That seems to be how it always is for me though.      Things that should have been said, things that should have been done. In essence, goals that were never reached - in hind sight, there is always tomorrow.      My fingers type this out as I reflect how this past (season) has more then drained me.       I found  myself working two jobs, endlessly. Hour after hour. Even though I...

                                                                                                                      Thanksgiving: 2023      Gobble, Gobble.  Here it is, another "almost" end of the year day. A day spent with the center of all the family and fun being good food. But honestly, how good is the food when it isn't the traditional Turkey w/ all the fixing but rather Chicken?      I just don't understand it. Like, who eats chicken on Thanksgiving? I doubt the Pilgrams landed with their first thoughts being "Oh, lets feast on chicken ... turkey - bah humbug."      I feel has though, somehow - somewhere from start A to ...

        There is no perfect time but with that being said - this would be the "perfect time" to remember,                          not that I could ever forget her, my Grandmother. Victoria aka Nana. Nana passed away in 2001 after a to long of fight with Cancer. F Cancer. Now that is a statement that I can fully get behind. In front of and circles around too.      All my life Nana had been my strength . Honestly, I believe that she still is. March 10th will always be a day that cuts right threw me. It was the day I had to say goodbye to her in a physical sense. It is funny, people will tell you when you lose someone that it gets better over time but I will contest to the fact that is a LIE! It never ever gets better. Maybe the blood stops flowing so freely but that wound is still there. Deep. Stinging with every breath you take. Sometimes my heart hurts so much when I think about her...

                               Here I go sounding like the same old broken record. I have to keep telling myself that I started a blog so I could, ha-ha, follow  myself so to say.  Talk about being lost! I never sit myself down to write "in" this, on here anymore. Thinking about it makes me pretty sad in away that I can not explain.      Most day swirl quickly past me like the new fallen snow that we are finally able to enjoy as Winter is coming to its end - Spring getting ready to March in.      My room is quiet - at my work station. My desk. I see the mountain in the distance with all the beauty of a pure white powder that has been painted over it for my viewing pleasure. Reminding me of all the snowmen I have brought  to life over the years. The big ones. The small ones. The happy ones and the lop-sided ones. Those days are gone.       My room is...

                                      Happy 34th to my oldest: My Cherie Amour

  As the World (still) Turns It seems like it has been forever since I have sat down to "write in this blog" that I started so that I could write - more.  Thinking back over the past month - I don't really know how much I can write to fulfill this chapter here (to share) in my life. I can't really say that to much has happened or changed - I worked a lot. I didn't work much.      Lisa Marie gained her wings - Cindy Williams did too & also Lanny Poffo. Many others as well - Lance Kerwin is another one. Strange for me when I think about loss. I am not to fond of the swirling dizzy trip it takes my mind or heart on.      I have have filed my taxes - on my own this year. This being a first for me  - I feel so grown up.      I have been obsessed with my newest "business" adventure. I will not divulge  in the comings of that just yet - soon though. Very soon. I feel more and more confident everyday with m...

                                            One, Two, Three, Four ... Five, Six, Seven, Eight.                                 Shlemiel, Schlemzel - Hasenpfeffer Incorporated <3       This is unbelievable to me! Miss Cindy, you were a huge part of my growning up years. Thank you for always being there & making me smile after a long day at school. I can just see the reunion with Penny aka Laverne and yourself. - Doing it your way.       Godspeed, Dear Friend. Godspeed.

                                                                                          "You are not alone ..."                                                    I can only imagine those hugs from your daddy and Michael.                                                                              God Speeed to you, Lovely Lady.                                 ...

                    Can we just pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?                                          I could really use a wish right now. The New Year has, of 13 hours ago - been "rung" in.  Exploding fireworks have come to an abrupt stop - the air finally clearing enough to show signs of a sun peaking through the Winters chilling day. I am happier with the snow show. Hopefully it will go on again before Summer rears its hot, nasty head in the months coming towards us. Sipping on a hot caramel coffee - since someone ate all my peppermint whip cream, I think about the work day a head, how I should be getting ready yet here I sit - taking time to write this.      It is January  1st. A glorious NEW YEAR with so many new possibilities , so many visions and so many wis...